Finding me ... The quest..
My health, And my Family... should always come first. I am learning
still I guess that what life is about. You make mistakes and if you
are lucky you get the wake up call you need. And hopefully you can get
things where they need to be. I guess that I had always just gotten
used to my weight and got comfortable with my size and shape. But I now
90 lbs lesser. Are still learning and still growing. Yes I have lost
weight. Yes I need to lose more. Yes I am still trying, But I had to
maintain for a while, And learn who I was. My husband got importable
with how much I had lost because he was worried that I would leave him.
Or be happy to be thiner and want to change my whole life. I have heard
stories. Some good some bad, About how it has happened. But I love my
Husband and I love my child. I know or lives are not easy but that is
not me.
But I did go Thur a phase, Of who am I now? Am I a
house wife? Am I something more? I am still finding out what all I am
now. I feel like it is now my time to step out of the shadow of my
child and my husband. I am now starting to learn that I need time for
myself. To recharge my battery's. And really get to how am I ? I am
learning that I am more than a house wife, I am an inspiration to
others. And I have no idea how I did that. I still feel surreal about
that.. I am happy to know that others hearing my words out there are
inspired to keep going.. I am trying so hard myself. It still amazes me
that others get so much from my words. I need to give more back in
return. But I have been so hard on myself. I have failed. But where
there is failure. There is a chance to start again. SO I am starting
again. I am Dusting myself back off. Praying for strength. And Hoping
for sauces.
I have started to run a small business on my own. And
I am so glad to look at myself in the mirror now. I can smile at
myself. I know I still have weight to lose but even now when I put
makeup on I can smile and I feel better about myself and I can say wow
you know what? I am worth this. I am worth it! For people to listen to
me, I am a good. person. Will find my way Thur this. I will lose this
weight and I will... Write my blog on a weekly basis.. Without having to
be reminded. I am blessed in so many ways. Thank you