Being able to do more but realizing how much more I have to go...

This week.. I have been doing work around the house. My baby cousin is graduating soon from High school. And the only thing she wanted. Was the barn to be fixed. She wanted 3 working stalls for her horses. So this week I have been helping with that. My father who is in his 60's and I. We tilled the floor in the stables because they haven't been used in 20 plus some years. There were holes that needed to be filled. The gound was hard like concrete. I ran the tiller back and forth through the ground. Several times.  And my dad stood there watching me. Waiting.... I tilled and tilled and tilled. He finally smiled at me and said, "I am waiting on you to give out!!" I tilled for a bit longer and we are talking about a 20 to 30 min period here. And then I finally gave it to him. My heart was beating out of my chest. For anyone who as tilled a garden or anything else my hat goes off to you.

For that was my first time... And as I sat there taking a short rest. I thought to myself two summers back. I wouldn't be doing this!!  I would be in the house in the air conditioning. Not even daring to do this. We did alot of other work. But I won't bore you with details. The main factor is, I realised wow how much I had done to help. How fast it got done. How I didn't have to sit down near as much as if it would have been a few years back. And how far I have come... But I did have to sit down and I still did wear out. I am proud of myself. But ..... I know I can do better.... And I want to... That is why I am asking. Please pray for me. This program has been a huge blessing in my life.. I know I am no where near where I want or need to be. And I need to keep going. And keep on keeping on. My family is my biggest cheerleaders. Out side of my family at the weigh station.... It was an eye opener to me. Yes I have lost weight. Yes I look better. Good even, BUT.... I am not where near where I want to be and only I have the power to change it.

Thank you