Hey yeah I know… I am behind. Stress has gotten to be a bit. My Dad had surgery and they had to remove his whole kidney. But Thank God. He is now cancer free. That then Mom had chemo… I put them before me… It is hard at times. I have slacked on myself. It is so hard to put myself first. Something I need to work on. I felt good for a few days. But this week and starting middle of last week that funk of depression has been trying to sneak back in and I am starting to feel that easy feeling of slacking on myself. I have not been drinking enough water. I need to duct tape a water bottle to my hand I swear.
I was sitting her kicking myself. And that is not going to do anything to help me. Only thing I can do it keep on keeping on. And do what I know. Do what I know is going to fix it eating right. Follow the diet Follow the diet And Drink the water.
We all have stress and struggles. The thing I have to rember is I feel much better on the diet And yes the stress is always going to be there. It stays there. But I can handle it better when I feel better. I can function and do something about it. Than off of it, and not feeling better. And I really do feel better!! I feel like such a more active person. And there are times it is such mind over matter for me. I sabotage myself. I say no I can cut corners. And well this is more important.
But no really the diet is more important if I ever want to lose the weight. If I ever want to be where I want to be. If I ever really want the outside world to see the person I know that is on the inside of me. We all have that person that is on the inside that we are dying to show the outside world. That chooses not to accept you if you don’t look a certain way or are a certain size. I don’t care for there approval anymore. Cause if you cant like me now. I know then your true feelings for me. But… I want to change the outside for me for my family. So that I am around and healthy. And so that I am able to do all the fun things in this world with my family and loved ones. And I am not sitting things out watching them being done without me cause I am short of breath.. To big to do it… Or unable to cause I can’t.
I just need to remind myself who I am doing this for … Me.
Pray for me.. As I will be praying for you..
Kristina
Hey .. How are you guys? I am doing good another 5 lbs down this week yes! .. I must be doing something right .. Haha..
Well
I am starting to try new foods .. And I have to tell you.. I was at my
cousins moms house.. Her mom has done the diet also .. And she fixed us
lunch.. And I grew up as a kid that would never eat my veggies much. but I was so hungry .. And it was so good! the whole mikey try it your like it thing .. Maybe ant so bad.
I despised green veggies
I
hated them with a passion .. I never would try them .. couldn’t make me
if you lied and told me they tasted like sugar .. I would not touch
them.
Anyways she took spinach sweet onions and mushrooms and
saut'ed them .. Then scrambled some eggs into them .. Then sprinkled a
little bit of cheese on top .. OH my goodness.. It was soo good
I
got the stuff and I have made it at home now.. I love it.. And my
daughter does too. I am just so grateful that my child doesn't fight
eating and trying new foods .. Unlike her mother.
So I thank my
stars for that .. But this week will be stressful my dad has surgery ..
Mom has chemo.. And I am trying hard to stick to my guns and keep this
life style change at the fore front . But I am amazed and learning
still every week. But I am proud that I am trying new foods and keeping
with the diet .. Water Water .. Cant get enough in me .. I swear
But I am going to keep at it . That is what we all have to do .Pray for me as I will be praying for you ..
Take care
Kristina
The Preacher at the church I attend read this poem a few sundays back.. And it has been on my heart and mind ever scince then..And I wanted to share it with you..
Don't Quit
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit--
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is funny with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns;
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won, had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit;
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.
--Leo Piggott, 1931
This Poems Speaks to me .. In Volumes ..
There are plenty times I want to give in give up. But when I think of that… I read this poem… And things seem to fall into place… I grasp peace and regain some faith in myself. And what I am doing. There are times that yes I am not going to be the best. Times I am going to give in. But Rest… Don’t Give up.
Yes there are tons of stresses out there that get to me… But I am going to Rest and not give up. I want this too much for ME. I want to be the person on the outside… That I am on the inside. Some see that others don’t. There missing out… But I am missing out… On my life ,by keeping this weight on me… And I want it off. I want to be Healthy. I need to be healthy for my loved ones and more for me. More than anyone I need to be Healthy for me…
I hope that this Poem reaches someone else out there this week… I lost one pound J Take care God Bless… Pray for me as I will be Praying for you…
And I also would just like to say… If you are out there reading this and it touches your heart … Please leave me a note. I would love to know and get some feed back or some support… I could use it… God Bless
Kristina
I need to .. Working on it I been feeling so much better .. I tell ya .. Just a little bit of weight off me and I feel so much better .. Really ! But this week was a bit ruff Cause of it I gained 2 pounds.. .. I am not eating enough… I get where I am not hungry… And I don’t eat… And I need to just eating something.. I know I need to do it But I get in these moods where I just keep going. And going and going… Then I am starving… Not good… I know
My cousin was telling me how I need to get my meals together the night before. And prepare them ahead of time so when I am in such a hurry I wont mess myself up. Cause that is my hardest problem. Anyone out there got any ideas?
I don’t get hungry and then when I do. I am stressing… What to eat…
And well I have to fix this. And I am upping my exercise… Been doing a lot of cleaning and… Walking… And I can tell such a difference in my moods and I don’t tire out as easy. I am not sitting down as much.
Such a difference. I can’t imagine how I going to be when I get another 15 -20 pounds off … I am focused on my goals. I am worried about not eating enough and drinking enough water… I have days. I kill it… I keep moving and keep going and water just comes right along with me… Then I will have a day where I can’t keep it up… I loss track of time… But I have to remind myself I am human. And I am going to have days like that. And not kick myself so hard. Just keep going keep moving. And remind myself ok yeah. You can do better and you know you can… So just do better now.
I think sometimes we can be our biggest cheerleaders. And then we can also be the biggest person to sabotage ourselves. And that we can either keep ourselves down. Or we can pull ourselves up from the bad thoughts and tell ourselves to get over it and keep moving on. The choice is ours if we really want it…
How bad do you want it?
Pray for me as I will always be Praying for you
Kristina Sarver
Hey!! .. GUESS WHAT?? ~grins~ … I LOST 14 lbs!!
Yes I did. No I am not kidding! 14 lbs! The meds are working. I am so happy! I am working hard on my goals. This week has been good. I kicked off my Monday off with the 14 lbs weight loss. And I have been strongly motivated on my goals. I also Have face book. And I have a huge cheering section there, and I tell you what… Everyone has been so wonderful and supportive. I only had one negative response. And it stung a bit… It really did. It made me upset. I responded back with an educated response. And also gave the link to the website. I explained that I am seen by a Dr on a weekly Basis. My Blood Pressure is checked weekly basis. And all .
And I talked to 2 dear friends about my anger. (Thank you .. You two you know who you are ~hugs~) Towards this person for saying the things they said
And you know what they told me.? People are going to be judgmental. People are going to Question my life style change and my choices . They reminded me, They are MY choices. I am doing this for ME. Not for them not for anyone except ME . Ok , And my Child. I want to see her grow up and be healthy and happy. And I want to live a long healthy life. And be around to see that.
But They made me see. Someone is always going to be negative and there always going to question and that is normal. Yes 14 in one week is a lot. But we all know. We are not going to always have weeks liked that. And that there are weeks we will lose as little as 1 pound or nothing at all. Maybe just inches.
But I AM the one with the POWER of how I am going to let someone words effect me. I AM the one who can say. Hey I understand your views. But this is what is working for me. You can support me or you can not. But I WILL NOT let you bring me down. This is my goal this is my DREAM. This is MY choice. I feel happy. Healthier. And this is working for me. So Thank You for you concern, your views, But I am doing what I think is best for me. And I will not let YOU bring me down. I will not let your negative views. Destroy me. People can be cruel at times in this world. And when someone sees someone successful in there choices there views there goals. There is always someone who will be your storm cloud. And try to rain on your Happiness. And it is up to YOU if you are going to let them. ARE YOU??
Me personally I REFUSE TO. I am not going to let anyone or anything stand in front of me and my goals this time around. So either Join me or get out of my way. Cause I am coming thru. And if you want to support me then… I thank you … If you don’t. Keep it to yourself. Why ruin other folks when you see them doing something healthy and that is helping them? Maybe you need to do something for yourself too. If so then do it.
Thank you again to those who give me the courage and the picked me up when I was down .. I love you . I know who has my back.
Pray for me as I will be Praying for you
Kristina
Ok this week was ruff… I didn’t lose, I gained. But one my thyroid is out of wack I stared meds for that. And I am starting to have more energy. And feel more human. Not so tired all the time. I try not to get down on myself. I am keeping in good thoughts and keeping my chin up.
I am a Stress eate Am I the only one? I highly doubt it. But the only way I am going to get thru it is admit it, pray about it. And find other ways to deal with it. It is nice and lovely out. Going for a walk or finding something to do out side is the best way to handle my stress. Instead of stuffing my face. Another thing I have to do is remind myself how much I have eaten. And food journals are the best way to keep up with that.
The worst thing I do is I get Stressed out. Stop eating I get to where I am not hungry. Then I sit down at dinner and I am starving and wanting to eat more than I should. So I have to remind myself. Hey I know I am stressed but. Even if it is something small. Something Just something. Then the less likely I am to over eat later on. It is hard and there are days. I try to do too much and get overwhelmed but I have to still remind myself to eat something. And take my pills and Drink. Drinking all the water if I start out early in the day .Then I do really good about it. But if I don’t keep it up… I fall behind
I know I am not the only one that does these things. We all have busy lives. But I tell you what. The days I get it all in… Every bit of it the meds the Water the walking. The right sizes of meals… All 3 meals.
I feel like a new woman. I feel so much better. About myself. Who I am. And what I have gotten done that day. This is an uphill battle. But bit, by bit. Day by day. I am going to come out ahead. I am going to reach my goal. I am going to be lighter. Healthy and Happy. About whom I am and what I have done. For me
So this week I have admitted my Dark secret. I am a stress eater. But I have tried so see the signs and make the changed to keep myself from being sabotaged. And hopefully we shall see if they helped on Monday
Take care everyone
Pray for me as I will be Praying for you
Take care
Kristina
Yes it is another week.. I know I am a bit off .. Ok .. A LOT Off ……this week .. My Dad is sick.. Sometimes when you think wow you been thru a lot .. Then something happens and you think goodness Dear lord can I take much more.?. Well .. I am sorry to say .. That Now My Father Has ..Renal Cell carcinoma.. BUT….. God is with my Dad. And he is blessed. Cause he got Diverticulitis.. And with out that .. We never would have found the tumor on his kindey . So God is good .
But ya know what???.. I am not going to let this stop me… I feel more at home … I feel better about myself… And who I am when I am with the Family… My Family at the Weigh Station. And I know that they will support me back me Pray for me… And be there for me every week… If you are New to this program… I can’t tell you enough Welcome! And you have made the best choice you have ever made.
You will never have a more caring team of Doctor’s staff… And Doctor… They are Amazing… And trust me I know… If you just need a hug that day… If you are having a bad week, or you are struggling with weight loss… Everyday life or just pretty much anything… There is always someone who will give you give a hug… Or care enough to help you figure out what you are doing wrong… That is keeping you from losing that last few pounds or get you out of a plateau I know they will always be there willing to give you the support you need ..
As for me this last week which was my first week back was a loss of 5 pounds!! .. Woot! ~ does a little snoopy dance ~… I am blessed… I am loved… I am going to get thru this… I am going to Not let this beat me… I will not put my weight loss off… I will not let this make me falter… I will not let this get me down…
Everyone has hard times… And I have realized… I am stronger… More empowered… And Loved… At the Weigh Station… And I am where I need to be… This is my Family… And this is what I am going to get thru this…. I will not let… This beat me…
Pray for me as I will be Praying For you ... Happy Easter ... :)
Kristina Sarver
Yes… It is me… I can give you tons of excuses… Reasons, explanations… My mother was Sick… Another Cancer Scare… Yes more surgery… And I took time to care for her… Cancer is a scary thing… And I have never had to deal with it until these last few years…
But when we get down to the bare bones of it… I had to take care of me… And I had to get back into the Mind set that… I want this… I WANT THIS!!!! You know what is another Killer beside Cancer? .....Obesity
… I am tired … I have gained back … A good amount of my weight… Not all… But More than I would care to admit to …
People would ask me… Example
The ladies at the store… Krissy… You still on that diet? When I would walk up there with my Cheese Danish and my Pepsi.. (Yes my Cheese Danish and Pepsi!!!) And I instantly would get that ashamed kick in the gut… No I would say… But I am going back.
Well, Time is a wasting.. It has been 6 months … How have you been?
Well, me I ..... have felt cruddy, down, tired; I have given up, and given in… And you know what I have to show for it? Umm I can get into my jeans I was so proud to wear. I can’t wear the cute stuff I had gotten into… And you know what? It it is funny they way people treat you… I have gone from Invisible to fully Visible … to well…. I just flat Disappeared again… BUT I AM HERE… I just want to scream it… I AM HERE!!! … CAN YOU SEE ME NOW?? HEHEHE… If you don’t?? I bet you something… GIVE ME a Few weeks… And YOU WILL…
I AM SICK OF IT!! I AM BACK!! And you are going to know it… I am going to be a Rock Star… …As I am going to be here every week… EVERY WEEK… Pouring my heart and soul out… Cause you know what?
I WAS where you are… And I am there again… And you know what … If I can lose it once… I CAN do it again! Yes it sucks… It sucks to have to do it again. But I am 31 years old… I have fought this battle . All my life… And it is something… I may never be free of... But I am not letting it.. NO … I REFUSE TO LET IT GET ME DOWN …
And if you are like me... YOU are not going to let it get you down too … ARE YOU?
Take care God Bless Every One!!
And let’s make this a Great week
Pray for me.. As I will be Praying for You
Kristina
I have had a huge responsce of prayers and people contacting me or trying to :)... Anyways I am ok.. Yes I am human. I am trying to take a deep breath and just get back on.. For some reason.. getting on my Horse out in the field after we both took a tumble seems eaiser than this... My Mom starts chemo this Comming friday. I am tryin.. Trying to get my head on straight and get my house back together. I have so many things that need to be done. I just keep looking around and going.. OK where do I start.. I start once place and then I get frustrated and move to something else. But I am getting now where... Funny how my life and my diet. Are in the same boat... I am not going to stop as long as Dr. Shafer will stand by me.. And I hope he sitll will.
I have always done things the hard way in life.. I guess this is no diffrerent. To the rest of things that I do I fill like I am just spinning wheels. .I always have to do it the hard way. I dont know why that is. I want to lose. I want to be healthy. And right now. I need to be more than ever. My family my child my whole family needs me. I just try to keep that going in my head,
Thank you all for the coments. E-mail's thoughts and prayers. I am just trying to weather the storm right now. If you want to contact me personally
Hayleys_mom_2@yahoo.com is the best way. Thank you again for all your prayers and thinking of me. I want this soo much.I just got to get my Cowgirl hat back on right. And hop on.
Kristina
I feel like the Prodigal Son Wasting the gift of knowleage that Dr shaffer has given me. And Now with starting to come
to my senses returning and begging for Dr. Shaffers mercy. I dont blame him. Also I could see the day that he could turn and and say Kris.. I dont know what more I can do for you... He Already told me this last week what more can I say to get you to understand. I dont want to die young from a heart attack Well I am Guilty.....
I am a stress eater. I cant blame anyone anymore but myself. You have to point the finger in the right direction. And I have to turn in around to myself. I should be done. With this program. I should be skinny Liven like a rock star... But If I can't walk the walk. I shouldnt talk the talk. Yes I write nothing but the trurth. But I need to do more, Walk more, MOVE more.
I have hit rock bottom. My mother has colon cancer. We are starting Chemo soon. And I have just lost it. I have layed in bed and cried. I have ate things I know I shouldn't have, My back hurts. I have gained. I am going to the Dr to have my meds uped. I am on medication for my deperssion. And I need help.. I need alot of help. I am lost. I am sorry I have been distant from my writting but I guess it is that I know . I know this is suposed to be uplifting. And if I can't uplift myself. How and can I write and ask others to be upliftied?? I am sorry if you think or stop reading what I write,. I am honest. And it is time that I am bluntly honest with myself. I want this... I want this more than I have ever wanted anything in my life. So why do I mess it up so bad??
I want better..... I know this diet inside and out. And I smack myself mentaliy and I am like stuipd stupid stupid. I know better. Why cant I turn it around??
Pray for me. Please I feel so lost. Maybe I have turned everywhere but where I need to My God.. And my listeners.. Please... Is there help for me?
This week.. I have been doing work around the house. My baby cousin is graduating soon from High school. And the only thing she wanted. Was the barn to be fixed. She wanted 3 working stalls for her horses. So this week I have been helping with that. My father who is in his 60's and I. We tilled the floor in the stables because they haven't been used in 20 plus some years. There were holes that needed to be filled. The gound was hard like concrete. I ran the tiller back and forth through the ground. Several times. And my dad stood there watching me. Waiting.... I tilled and tilled and tilled. He finally smiled at me and said, "I am waiting on you to give out!!" I tilled for a bit longer and we are talking about a 20 to 30 min period here. And then I finally gave it to him. My heart was beating out of my chest. For anyone who as tilled a garden or anything else my hat goes off to you.
For that was my first time... And as I sat there taking a short rest. I thought to myself two summers back. I wouldn't be doing this!! I would be in the house in the air conditioning. Not even daring to do this. We did alot of other work. But I won't bore you with details. The main factor is, I realised wow how much I had done to help. How fast it got done. How I didn't have to sit down near as much as if it would have been a few years back. And how far I have come... But I did have to sit down and I still did wear out. I am proud of myself. But ..... I know I can do better.... And I want to... That is why I am asking. Please pray for me. This program has been a huge blessing in my life.. I know I am no where near where I want or need to be. And I need to keep going. And keep on keeping on. My family is my biggest cheerleaders. Out side of my family at the weigh station.... It was an eye opener to me. Yes I have lost weight. Yes I look better. Good even, BUT.... I am not where near where I want to be and only I have the power to change it.
Thank you
My health, And my Family... should always come first. I am learning
still I guess that what life is about. You make mistakes and if you
are lucky you get the wake up call you need. And hopefully you can get
things where they need to be. I guess that I had always just gotten
used to my weight and got comfortable with my size and shape. But I now
90 lbs lesser. Are still learning and still growing. Yes I have lost
weight. Yes I need to lose more. Yes I am still trying, But I had to
maintain for a while, And learn who I was. My husband got importable
with how much I had lost because he was worried that I would leave him.
Or be happy to be thiner and want to change my whole life. I have heard
stories. Some good some bad, About how it has happened. But I love my
Husband and I love my child. I know or lives are not easy but that is
not me.
But I did go Thur a phase, Of who am I now? Am I a
house wife? Am I something more? I am still finding out what all I am
now. I feel like it is now my time to step out of the shadow of my
child and my husband. I am now starting to learn that I need time for
myself. To recharge my battery's. And really get to how am I ? I am
learning that I am more than a house wife, I am an inspiration to
others. And I have no idea how I did that. I still feel surreal about
that.. I am happy to know that others hearing my words out there are
inspired to keep going.. I am trying so hard myself. It still amazes me
that others get so much from my words. I need to give more back in
return. But I have been so hard on myself. I have failed. But where
there is failure. There is a chance to start again. SO I am starting
again. I am Dusting myself back off. Praying for strength. And Hoping
for sauces.
I have started to run a small business on my own. And
I am so glad to look at myself in the mirror now. I can smile at
myself. I know I still have weight to lose but even now when I put
makeup on I can smile and I feel better about myself and I can say wow
you know what? I am worth this. I am worth it! For people to listen to
me, I am a good. person. Will find my way Thur this. I will lose this
weight and I will... Write my blog on a weekly basis.. Without having to
be reminded. I am blessed in so many ways. Thank you
Hey you all... I posted a new pic... and I added abit of new detail to my Bio.. other than that not much has changed on my site.... But I am still alive and kickin!! I took on a new Job a while Back I said good bye to lunch lady land... And Back to babysitting... I stay with a almost 2 year old Aiden... And I have a 7 month old Mckensie. And life is getting better me and My husband have become closer and have been on a couple of dates ! And I am learning who I am now. And starting to know what I want... #1 on that list is to lose more weight!!! ALot more... But anyways... I hope everyone is doing well. Just wanted to say HI!!!
Take care and God Bless I will be writting much more soon!!!
Kristina Sarver
Hey everyone!! I am so excited warmer weather is ahead of us. Oh I can’t wait Saturday was enough of a teaser to get me going!! I am ready to clean my house.. And play outside!! The sun is out and it is a wonderful motivation!! I am ready to walk out side and play with my kids and enjoy my life, Ride my cousin’s horses. And brush them and play with them.. And pray I don’t get stepped on this year!! Lol
I did something that I never thought was possible, my little girl had been harping me to get out my wedding dress. Something that I haven’t seen in 12 years come this July I was like why hunny?? And she says because you can get into it!!! I know you can mommy!!!
My little one is 6 years old for her to say that to me
She must really think I am down to that size. Because all up until today, she has seen of this dress are photos. And home movies .And I am not so sure that I was ready but she loves to play dress up so much ….. So for her I decided to suck it up and do it…. And I was so shocked I am almost into it meaning like we are talking maybe 4 inches in the back to zip it up all the way to the top!!!
And I had a full body thing on when I wore the dress for my wedding. You know one of those things that suck you in all over. And you walk around straight as a stiff stick?? Yeah those body briefer or what ever else they call them that suck you in all over and make you horribly uncomfortable. And takes and act of congress to get you out of to have to go to the bathroom… If you are a man read this …. You have no idea what we ladies go thru!!!! Anyways Guess What??? This was 4 inches people without one on meaning to me that I might have been able to get all the way. If I wanted to roll around on the floor for a half hour trying dance, twist, and shimmy to get myself into one.
But that is not how I wanted to spend my Sunday… Not really a fun thing to do… LOL.. So I will rather wait it out a few weeks and then try again. I really am more motivated to now surpass this dress size and be in a much smaller size because it is a 20/22. And I was in a 30/32 when I started the weight station. I am so Happy!!!! And This really made me smile today.. Sometimes it just goes to show you. Even the smallest person can have huge effects on our lives…. My child has always been a huge blessing my life.
Just wanted to share this with you all.
God Bless,
Kristina
Life has it's ups and downs. And I am loving the rollercoster that it can be at times. Sometimes we laugh in sheer delight at how things work out and other times we cry with our failures and sadness of defeats. But we have to keep going and as some have told me, life keeps going. And I have to learn not to let myself become obsorbed with my sadness. The sun is starting to shine again in my life and outside and I am embrassing it full force. I dressed me and my baby girl warm and we went outside and walked around. Played with the dog. Loved on the horses. And visited with them. I can't wait for warmer weather so I can get back to riding!!! I miss it so much!!!
Anyone who doesn't know, I live in the country and I help exercise my cousins 4 horses. And I love it so much!!
But anyways after that we walked around. And then me and my husband went out the the school and went for a walk, and talked. Really talked.. Andy I and have been going through counseling and a very hard time. Just in general. But we are starting to turn the corner. And I think for the first time in a long time I see the hope and happiness I can, did, and could have again. We had been letting things come between us and not making time for us. Rather..... I had not been making time for us. And you have to do that.. we grew apart and I chose to hide in the computer with friends, and behind activites. And keep my distance soon we had nothing to talk about. Nothing in common. While we walked I remember why I fell in love with him, cause he listened to me...... he really listened.. And that is what I had missed the most and have been delving into the computer for. But It wasnt just him I started to hide from my friends, my loved ones..
But I am beginning to realize that I can't hide from my problems. I must face them and work them out. My weight, my husband,...ect. Speaking of my weight!!! I lost 4 pounds!!!! Go me go me!!! Ha ha!!I am walking daily. If I have too I take the kids with me... they like it too. or we just go outside.... And walk around, And making sure I just dont turn the computer on first thing. Have like a mental check list I have been doing..
1. Get my kids settled. Get settled in for the day... find out what I need to do... What needs to be taken care off. 2. Fix my self up. even if it is just fixing my hair a bit, put on just a touch of make up and spray on a touch of body spray. It makes me feel 10 time better about myself!! Than if I mope around no make up and hair all over 3. then I pick up the house, my 19 month old I keep loves to help!! He loves laundry. I dump it in the floor and let him put in the dryer. 4. Random dancing... Some times the kids are as bored as I am.. Some times I just keep music on as we clean. And we just break into dancing. Makes them smile and it is good for you too!! We dance while we fold laundry too. he he.. I hate laundry keeps me happy and then I forget I hate is so much !! ha ha. 5. Plan meals... Lunch.. some times it sneaks up on me when I have two or three of the kids. So I try to have a back up plan for a quick fix for me!! 6. Then I try to get the kids down for a nap.... Then I might get online... while they are asleep then I am off again. 7.Pick up and play time then when moms come home and get babies sometimes we all walk... Soon I will be going to the gym :) so excited. 8. I try to stay away from it when I get home spend time with Hayley and Andy.... 9. When hayley goes to bed then i give myself 30 to 45 min... then it is Andy and my time. 10 . I try to get him to tell me about his day. Or something we read this wonderfull book a friend gave us called love languages. And we try to read it together, taking turns reading it out loud to the other one. Just talk to each other and be together...And I am also reading a book on forgiveness
Well that is what a normal day is like for me... And that is what I am trying to stick too... of course there are days where..I dont get everything done. Or I falter and stay on longer than I wanted too. Or don't get it all done. Or I can't get all done. But I am learning that that is life....And I can't beat myself up for it and I can't always get it all done!!! And there are days when the kids (he he) are less than happy about my plans or my ideas of the day... he he.... But that is what I love about it. Somedays they throw me curve balls. Aiden doesn't want to do dancing with me. And no he might feel bad and want to lay down early or vaccum the living room with his toy vaccum cleaner and when I don't let him bang the toy into the wall and I take it away. He may just decide to go to the real vaccum cleaner and lets say take the bagless part off. And dump it in the floor!! But that is what kids do, they are kids!! And unpredicable and fun and full of life....And they make me feel good again... Cause at the end of the day and I get those hugs bye bye and those kisses. They make the whole day worth it all. And that makes me smile when I go home and it helps me to share that with my family. And that my kids are my little blessings. Truely they are making me realize what life is about and seeing it thru their eyes again makes me smile!!!
And it helps in making it easier to deal with my own little girl. Yes she is ADHD and we are working on treament for her too. And God help me. Please be soon. But I can handle her better now at the end of the day. And she has gotten real close to my mom. And they have there own routine which is very important with her, And I am learning that more and more about how to deal with her. Kids don't come with instruction manuals and I am so out of my league with her. And she is my own kid!! And I can't fix it sometimes. I know that all this blog is really alot of just what is going on with me. And I am sorry.....Just alot on my mind guess I need to share....
Pray for me and as I am always praying for you. But I feel as though things are comming together and with the good lords help they are :)
Kristina
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